eddie vedder

he just may be my new hero.
even moreso than bryan adams -- which is a stretch for me.

i luhh him.
to put it that way.

ummm i really just kinda want to play sims,
because that life that i made for myself is just a little bit better than my own
actually no, a lot better.
i'm friends with people i used to be friends with.
they all have happy families,
even if i'm not included as part of them
we're friends.

i want it to be that way for real.

then there's the charles/james thing.
wtf were you guys talking about?
you're really nice to me when james isn't there
and he shows up and
poof. different person

asshole.

'cept for i think i reeally just reeeally like him
dunno why.
makes me all warm and fuzzy on the inside which is weird for me
i kinda wish it didn't happen
he's a lot older than me.
then again, he always makes sure to say hi
but maybe he's just being polite.

WHO KNOWS?

don't forget about me

somewhere, somehow, some time ago..

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it's been too long since we've talked,
why did we stop talking anyways?
and why did you disappear?
why did you change so much?

it's not like we're that different,
i like to disappear every once in a while too;
but not for this long.
i miss our long talks about music
about your future
about my future

about our future.

we were going to do it together;
you'd be the talent and i'd be the voice.
you're a brilliant guitar player btw,
just thought you should know.

my future is over and done with.
i need to know if i'm good enough,
right
now.

i'm tired of waiting for everyone else.
i wish people would just tell the truth,
no matter how mean or harsh it was.
everything would be so much better.
no one would chase dreams that they couldn't reach,

we wouldn't build ourselves up
only to be broken down.

what kind of life is that anyway?

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where did you go? i need you now, please come back to me. i'll be here waiting, i won't turn away, i won't reject you. i'll be here, forever, waiting.